Back from a stay over at my cousins' place. We had lots of fun doing girly stuff together like painting our nails, eating junk food, curling on the couch to watch the telly and talking about problematic boys HAHAHA. Even though I'm the oldest, and my cousins are relatively younger than me, well, girls will always be girls right? Same old boring topics that you boys can never comprehend. Just like how you guys talk about your violent video games and your own lust over hot girls hahaha.
So I came home with a mild cold which somehow turned into a fever. I think it's the erratic weather that's causing so many of us to fall sick. I spent my night blowing my nose into tissues and by the next morning, the full tissue box was empty. That serious.
On a completely different topic, I found out that what I have been looking forward to for the past half a year isn't gna happen anymore and I am utterly disappointed. Word. For the past 6 months it has been my motivation to get through the day and just when the time is nearing, I get news that it isn't gna come to past. Had wanted to vent an entire post here to make myself feel better but I decided not to because I'll sound like a complete psycho. Nope, not worth an image tarnished.
I am a fiasco when it comes to handling and maintaining relationships with people. I never like to initiate a conversation, or call them out. People are usually the ones making the effort and I'm usually just on the receiving end. Perhaps only those that I'm really comfortable with. But then again, it's just a handful. I can be friendly, but I'm not exactly the most sociable person you'll meet. I don't step out of my comfort zone to meet new people, I don't try to gain the acceptance of others. Maybe because it's exhausting, and maybe because I don't find the need to do so. For you, I've tried. But if all that wasn't enough, then I'm sorry.
I suppose I should be popping some more pills and snuggling under the sheets to sleep this cold away. That should conclude my Friday night. And once I'm up and feeling better, I should be looking at accommodations for schooling life in the laid back down under.
Please let me recover fast, I still have a movie date on tomorrow :'(
